The Epidermis:

Emerging from the abyss is not good enough. I did nothing but linger at the entrance and slowly descended back down to the comfort of my cave. A lot happened during this time, while also nothing happened as well.

Fortunately, I have found a new job. It is not within the book industry as I dream and studied for. However, it is still a step up. Perhaps something that can be a stable career while I work on getting my shit together. Well, it’ll never be truly together but I digress…

The Guts:

I am a coward. Procrastinator. Complainer. Whiner. Excuse-making piece of garbage. I sat back and watched as those around me worked hard and started to make their dreams reality. I watch feeling jealous. Why can’t I do that? I constantly thought.

I can though. I just didn’t want to put in the hard work. It’s so much easier to dream of the end results instead of chipping away at the stone stairs that leads there. The good news is, I have been chipping. Very slowly and there is not much progress to show for it.

However, I’m trying to turn that around again. There are people who support and believe in me. I have to believe in my self as well. I can’t leave the world letting my stories never seeing the light of day. So, I am picking up my chisel once more and putting extra vigor into making those steps.

Watch me, we’re going somewhere.